Thursday, May 26, 2016

WISDOM



This have I learned from my own personal quest. In my souls understanding, the greatest threat to Peace & Balance is Avidyā. Avidyā is a Sanskrit word whose literal meaning is Ignorance, Misconceptions, Misunderstandings, or Incorrect Knowledge.
One way to decrease Ignorance is reawaken Philosophia. Philosophia, by this definition, is the Love Of & the Search For Wisdom. Philosophia is an ACTIVE search for Wisdom. It is meant to guide our actions & prescribe a Way of Life. It clarifies the fundamental nature of Reality & concerns itself with the Nature of Being.

Our interpretation of the World, does not always match Reality. There are innumerable illusions. The Frequency Illusion is when we see a reality that matches our expectation. Our belief system does not change what is real however.
Philosophia, brings the 'philosopher' to Higher Levels of Being. A genuine practitioner of the tradition of Philosophia understands that this lower, terrestrial world is in some way a shadow of a higher world. The key is in the knowledge & ability to distinguish the material world from the Spiritual world. Don't allow the counterfeit world be sold as the Genuine. Be in this world but not of it serves as a reminder to remain unattached to the material. In this sense, both Christian & Buddhist Philosophies are harmonious & relevant. This relevancy extends even to Sufi Poets. In Truth, One is All. Truth is inclusive, so...

"Take an axe to the prison wall.
Escape.
Walk out like someone suddenly born into color.
Do it now.
You're covered with thick cloud.
Slide out the side.
Die, and be quiet.
Quietness is the surest sign that you've died.
Your old life was a frantic running from silence.
The speechless full moon comes out now." -Rumi

"Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water & of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.
That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit." John 3

Essentially Peace & Balance would mean:
"To swing on the spiral
Of our divinity and
Still be a human."

Saturday, February 20, 2016

You For Me My Friend, and Me For You

For the past month since I have been studying War, namely WW1, WW2 & recently the Vietnam War, I have had night terrors.
I am a young man amongst my brothers hearing bombs drop terrifyingly close. I am crippled & virtually paralyzed with fear. My heart races, but because I am alive, I don't even have to consciously choose to survive. I strive to follow my heart, my mind competes, my gut chimes in. Save Myself. Save Myself so I can save whomever else I can. I move. I have a telescopic vision now. I look ahead as far out as I can. I signed up for this among others who were forced. Still, we have the blood of brotherhood.

And I don't "want" war, but I am male & I am designed to fight if I must & I will. I will be brave. I will find another reason to be brave. I am a man! Some are dead & others are dying & there is no time for mourning. I don't even tremble at the deep resonance & shaking ground of gun fire & dropping bombs any longer.

I am in action. I keep moving. I have a purpose. I am a human, not a machine. I see human body parts not attached to bodies. Not that I have no compassion, I am compassionate. The passion is here now though. I am part of a team, a team on a mission & we believe we will win. Some... believe we will win. And, even if they don't, they give it their all, knowing their fate is inevitable.
I'm alive. I'm still alive & I run, duck & hide. I shoot back. The others are targets. Enemies. Less than human, but I know they are human. They have families. I will do my duty. War is a fact of life. I have been designed to fight. I am a survivor. I stand along side my brothers, and sisters even. Our women are valuable. None in the field. Most nursing the wounded.

For the war... against the war... war is war... I have no time to wrestle with right or wrong. It is what it is. I signed up. I pledged allegiance. And I know all the "enemies" of all time were also made of flesh & blood & bone, with a story of their own. I don't ponder right or wrong. I have to be outside the lines of it. We cannot do THAT to ourselves. We cannot go back in time & erase what has been done. We MUST integrate it all. Even if it's ugly.

So I sit now amongst the shrapnel & smell of blood & I dutifully collect my thoughts & I know... today I have survived. I have done what a billion men have done throughout history. I have fought. And I don't quite know exactly what I believe in. But I know that if I am able to integrate this experience, I will be okay.

I have an opinion. My opinion is... I signed up for this. Not this war in particular, but this Life. And during the course of this life I have gone into battle. From this I have suffered & from this suffering I have grown.
I am a female dreaming... that I am a male in a War. I wake up in sweats. I wake up trembling. I wake up crying. I know the soldier that I am in my dream. I know the men who fought, who fight... even if only in dreams. Because you see, dreams build countries, build worlds. I am not afraid to dream even the most frightening of dreams.

One thing I am afraid of is not expressing my experience. So I will share. And I do not know if war is necessary or should soon come to an end in our evolution, but I know humanity has problems. Climate Change, Overpopulation, Health, Obesity, Poverty. This is a Global Crisis.
I know the ones who will be brave enough to implement solutions are soldiers, warriors. And I have nothing but RESPECT for the "Mother Land" which is The entire WORLD & on it are her people. The Chosen People! WE ARE THE ONES who will Rectify what has been desecrated. The Sacred Shall Return.

We carry the seeds of a new crop of humanity. Ones who are more efficient. Ones who are not disconnected. Ones who are the result of the great need for Peace. WE ARE HERE. We are the Wisdom Keepers. We are hive minded. Our souls, hearts & minds connect.
The native people said many things as to the future of a people who would be ruled by corruption. It was easy for them to foresee the future of a greedy lust for the individual dream. Today what is required is a Collective Dream. First it starts with mutual respect. Especially for those we see as enemy, because those are the greatest teachers. And so it begins....

"Now you know how nice it feels,
Scatter good seed in the fields.
Life's ours for the making,
Eternity's waiting, waiting,
For you and me."

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

~ The PLAY of Life ~


Thank you for being my Soulmates. My (In Lak'ech Ala K'in), my mirrors, my co-stars in this play of life. I have been beaten, I have fallen, I have had my heart broken open & I know what it means to gain Freedom by pushing up thru the darkness.

We are here Friends, as Human Angels, no longer controlled by the ego or the lower elements of the underworld. We wear the Golden Crown of the Violet Vibration. We are a Collective Soul. We are One in the Uni-Verse, floating in the Galax-Sea. We are what we dream to be!

We are most definitely an Evolving Species. We have been repressed, suppressed, controlled, dominated, manipulated, in order to make the world what it is to day. We have been the ones who built the trains, the highways, the cities.... the pyramids..... the world wide web. We have done this in an attempt to connect to the Divine Source & to connect to one another. All roads... don't lead to Rome. They can lead us HOME. We are Awakening from the hypnosis, and we are generating a Wave of Awareness.

What we are here to do is bring the Freedom of HEAVEN into the Material realm. Non-attachment relieves suffering. We are SPIRIT inhabiting a physical vessel. We are playful & creative by nature. We are also competitive & controlling by nature. We are Maturing as a Species that knows it's Interconnectedness to all things. Harm one, harm the whole. What you do unto the least of these you do unto 'God'. We are the ocean in a drop. We are doing the work of LOVE.

Everything must stem from LOVE & COMPASSION, Not Fear... we are not business people. We are MEDICINE people. Live simply, live thrifty, recycle, give what you can, God will provide, have faith & rest in that. REST in the Knowing. We are growing. We are not designed to be work-a-holics, we are able to reduce the stress that causes dis-ease from Resting in Peace. We (don't have to be dead) to rest in Peace & the comfort of being provided for. God provides for all creatures great & small. Hoarding & worrying about money is generating stress for everyone. In order to be free we must let go. It's not about money or Wall Street.... it's about UNITY & together we can all live our dreams. We will all get to experience what our souls long for! We deserve that. We were created for that! To be HAPPY & Fulfilled!

The meek shall not inherit a corrupt, destroyed, polluted planet. The meek shall SPEAK! The meek shall LEAD the way. My gold, our gold, is on the inside. When you know that.... your gold will manifest on the outside & when you obtain financial gain, don't lose your soul & want more & more needful things. Be unattached, always, all-ways give back!

We can BE OUR OWN GOVERNORS. Sovereign Individuals in sovereign homes, in sovereign communities, in sovereign nations, in a sovereign world. Human Beings who are responsible to be their own AUTHORITY. We police ourselves. We heal ourselves. Sharing & caring will dissipate the crime. If we wish to stop crime & end violence we must trust & give.

Be ye servants of LOVE. This is the Only Job you have while visiting this planet. Serve Love in ALL you do. You will glean wisdom from books, but you do not NEED or require a book. We need to be allowed to be guided from the inside. We don't need religion to experience god. We would benefit more from having our own religious experience. God is too big to fit into one religion where one is right & all others are wrong. Have we not outgrown this silly separatism? Do not Saints come from all races & creeds? Let go of what we think we know so we can have space to learn. Open, open, open.

The more we agree to let one another be, so long as we harm none, the happier we can be. We don't need to convert people so our religion, our separatism has more power, more control, more sway & can dominate & rule the world. There is a separation of church & state? The church IS the state! We don't need a one world religion or a new world order. We need to co-exist in Peace & Freedom. We are already one. We WON!

Yes, -REVELATIONS- are happening but it is not the same Revelations in the Bible or other (divine writ) books. That Revelation was someone else's Revelation. We may have our own! We do not have to live in FEAR of the way it will all end! We do not have to manifest that prophecy. WE CAN ~CHANGE~ When we change our minds, we change our reality!

Imagine that.

With Divine Love, Your Mighty Girl Sunny xoXXox

Sunday, February 23, 2014

~ YOGA ~


Yoga is Hard! It takes dedication, devotion, turning all the night time into the day. oh wait that's "Walk of Life". Well Yoga IS the Walk of Life. It heals & enhances on Every Level! Body, Mind, Emotions, Soul. Stuff-Comes-Up. One is constantly being faced with ones self! All that we are is revealed, layer by layer! There is nothing like Yoga. It is it's own mathematical equation. A body without Yoga is like Science without Math. Without the Periodic Table. How far can we venture without equations? It is the only way we discover what is True. What the governing forces are.

Yoga is Not about repression. So it is boldly going where some fear to tread. Yoga is about 'Dealing with it'. It's not a procrastinators path. Yoga means fearlessness. Re-opening wounds that are scarred over but never healed correctly & digging out the root of the problem. You see what I mean? Asana's can be easy for some. Meditation can come easy for others... but YOGA, all 8 limbs... is a hard tree to climb. It is 100% challenging 100% of the time. So why do it? Why not just numb ourselves & be enslaved by our desires?

The 'knowing' that comes from Yoga - the stillness & inner peace, the stability, agility, balance, emotional control & the ability to master & steer your ship & create your destiny is why we do it. It is not easy to build a bridge, but where would we be without them? It is not easy to perform surgery, but how many of us have relied on surgeons? We must Choose Yoga. It will propel us into a future of harmony & abundance. It will tear down the walls we do not see. The ones we hide... even from ourselves. Yoga is Liberation. It does not ask anyone to give up their religious traditions. It asks us simply to be Present. And when we all come together in this moment, not thinking of the past or future... we have the Power to create a new Paradigm. We don't have to pray 'As it is in Heaven'... because we will all be there - LIVING together.

No one promised Life would be Easy, but Yoga Can & Will create a more Easeful, Peaceful existence. It Will decrease suffering. It will increase strength & fortitude. It will make things clear. It will stabilize your foundations so you can build your temple as creatively as you wish.

Yoga is Hard... Life without Yoga - is Harder. This is the experience of my Truth. Love & Light to you all during your 'Walk of Life'! xoXXox

Friday, December 6, 2013

~ * KUMARE * ~


I watched a video last evening titled KUMARE'. I believe any seeker or finder would benefit from this film. Kumare' is an Enlightened Guru from the EAST who builds a following of Disciples from the WEST. However.... Kumare' is Not Real! He is an American Film-Maker doing a "social experiment". His greatest teaching is that from revealing Illusion comes Truth.

The True Guru is Inside each of us. It has many names as there are many people, cultures, languages. Some call it Inner-Christ, others Buddha Nature, others Atman. That which we call God - is not only external but also Indwelling. It is Within All Creation & inside-every-cell of our beings. We have Always understood that we are All cells in one Giant Body. That which we call the Universe, or One Verse, comes from this knowledge. We have inherently known from the beginning that we are One. One World, One People, One Love. One "God" in many forms, and the Kingdom of Heaven lies Within.

Christ said "No man gets to the father but by me" well IF Christ is our Immortal Soul that makes sense! We lose the physical shell & all its desires & needs & through the vehicle of the soul are transported back to the Light from which we came. So Christ >IS IN EVERYONE< Already. Some have not yet been -AWAKENED- to their Divine Nature. Some have been Awakened to it but by another name.I dare say the God I know is NOT Jealous. God would not give us Freewill if he were. Humans may project Jealousy onto God. Thereby keeping their women in burqas. Mankind is Jealous. God Shares Love with All.


God or the Force of Goodness is Aware that LOVE is LOVE & where there is LOVE there is the God-ness. There is only -ONE LOVE- There are Many Aspects of Love. Compassion is one. Kindness another. Yet the SOURCE is the same. How liberating to know this!


The Divine Plan is to Raise the Kingdom of Heaven up from -Inside- while (STILL ALIVE) To do this we must confront our mortality to gain our Immortality. So we lay down our lives to the Will of Heaven. We Offer Ourselves as Living Sacrifices to be vehicles for Divine Love. Representatives of Christ Consciousness.


♥ Yours in Eternal Love, Lori Lee Sunny-Sunflower ♥



Monday, March 5, 2012

~ The Immaculate Black Madonna ~


Have you any education on 'The Black Madonna'? Well come to class, I will share with you all I know...




These are excerpts from a lecture by Dr.Matthew Fox

"Every archetype has its seasons. They come & go according to the deepest, often unconscious, needs of the psyche both personal & collective. Today the Black Madonna is returning. She is coming, not going, & she is calling us to something new (and very ancient as well).

An archetype by definition is not about just one thing. No metaphor, no symbol, is a literal mathematical formula. The Black Madonna meant different things in different historical periods & different cultural settings.

She has comes to challenge us, to shake us up which is an ancient work of Isis.The Black Madonna is Dark & calls us to the darkness...

Darkness is something we need to get used to again. “Enlightenment” has deceived us into being afraid of the dark & distant from it. Light switches are illusory. They feed the notion that we can “master nature” & overcome all darkness with a flick of our finger.

(Meister Eckhart observes that “the ground of the soul is dark.” Thus to avoid the darkness is to live superficially, cut off from one’s ground, one’s depth.)

The Black Madonna invites us into our depths.

This is what the mystics call the “inside” of things, the essence of things. This is where Divinity lies. It is where the true self lies. It is where illusions are broken apart.

She calls us back to the darkness which is mystery itself. She encourages us to be at home there, in the presence of deep, black, unsolveable mystery. To forever remain in AWE.

She is the great Cosmic-Mother on whose lap all creation exists. The universe itself is embraced & mothered by her.

The Black Madonna calls us down to honor our lower chakras. One of the most dangerous aspects of western culture is its constant flight upwards, its race to the upper chakras. The Black Madonna takes us down, down to the first chakras including our relationship to the whole. To the EARTH. To our sexuality (second chakra) & our anger & moral outrage (third chakra).

European culture in the modern era especially has tried to flee from all these elements both in religion & in education. The Black Madonna will not tolerate such flights from The Earth.

Because she honors the direction of down & the lower chakras that take us there, the Madonna Honors The Earth & represents Ecology & Environmental Concerns.

-MOTHER EARTH- is named by her very presence. Mother Earth is dark & fecund & busy birthing. So is the Black Madonna.

“The Black Madonna is also the Queen of Nature, the blesser & agent of all rich fertile transformations in External & Inner Nature, (in the outside world and in the psyche).”

Mother Earth nurtures her children & feeds the world & the Black Madonna welcomes them home when they die. SHE RECYCLES ALL THINGS.

The Black Madonna calls us to the ENVIRONMENTAL REVOLUTION, to seeing the world in terms of our INTERCONNECTEDNESS with all things & not our standing off to Master or Rule over Nature (as if we could even if we tried).

She is an affront to efforts of capitalist exploitation of the resources of the earth including the exploitation of the indigenous peoples who have been longest on the Earth interacting w/ her in the most nuanced of ways.

The Black Madonna sees things in terms of the WHOLE & therefore does not countenance the abuse, oppression or exploitation of the many for the sake of financial aggrandizement of the few!

She has ALWAYS stood for justice for the oppressed & lower classes (as distinct from the lawyer classes). She urges us to STAND-UP to those powers that, if they had their way, would exploit her beauty for short term gain at the expense of the experience of beauty that future generations will be deprived of.

The Black Madonna calls us to living SPIRITUALLY & radically on this planet & NOT SUPERFICIALLY & Unthinkingly & Oblivious to the grace that has begotten us in so many ways.

She -CALLS US- to enter into the depths of our pain, suffering & shared grief—not to run from it or cover it up with a myriad of addictions.

She calls us to the depths of our Creativity & to entertain the images that are born in and through us. And she calls us to the depths of transformation, of social, economic, gender, racial & Eco justice.

The Black Madonna calls us to our Divinity which is also our Creativity. She calls us inside, into the “kingdom/queendom of God” where we can co-create with Divinity & feel the rush of Divinity’s holy breath or spirit.

~But to call us to Divinity is to call us to our Responsibility To Give Birth~

Because the Black Madonna is black, she addresses the fundamental phobia around race & differences of color & culture that come with race & ethnic diversity.

God as Mother, not just Father. God as Birther, not just Begetter. Gender diversity is honored by the Black Madonna and so too is gender preference.

The Black Madonna, the Great Mother, is not homophobic. She welcomes the diversity of sexual preferences that are also part of creation, human & more-than-human.

(We have now counted fifty four species of birds and mammals that have significant homosexual populations. The medieval notion that homosexuality is “against nature” has been dis-proven: A homosexual minority is very much part of nature.)

The Black Madonna calls us to Grieve. The Black Madonna is the sorrowful mother, the mother who WEEPS TEARS for the suffering in the universe, the suffering in the world, the brokenness of our very vulnerable hearts. She is WATER. She is EMOTION.

The Great Mother, knows & empathizes with us in our pain. She embraces us like a tender mother, for COMPASSION is her SPECIAL GIFT to the world.

Only by passing through grief can creativity burst forth anew. Grieving is an emptying, it is Making The Womb Open Again for New-Birth to happen.

A culture that would substitute addictions for grieving is a culture that has lost its soul & its womb. To grieve is to enter what John of the Cross in the sixteenth century called the “dark night of the soul.”

“God replied: ‘I wish always to be your physician, bringing healing anointment for all your wounds. If it is I who allow you to be wounded so badly, do you not believe that I will heal you most lovingly in the very same hour?”

What is it we learn in this darkness of soul & spirit? “From suffering I have learned this: That whoever is sore wounded by love will never be made whole unless he embrace the very same love which wounded her.”

The Black Madonna calls us to Celebrate & to Dance. While she weeps tears for the world, as the sorrowful mother, she does not wallow in her grief, she does not stay there forever. Rather, she is a joyful mother, a mother happy to have being & to have shared it with so many other creatures. She expects Joy in return. Celebration of life and its pleasures lie at the core of her existence."

Celebration is part of compassion. Celebration is the exercise of our common joy. Praise is the noise that joy makes. It is in favor of BIOPHILIA. She is a lover of life par excellence. She expects us, her children, to be the same.



Sunday, March 4, 2012

~ No Goodbye ~

((I won't say Goodbye! But rather... Until We Meet Again!!))

I wrote and performed these poems over 10 years ago, but they are wonderful, & I believe you will appreciate them.


-WombMan-

Woman you grow inside me

Gently cracking & breaking

the little girl shell


You emerge slowly

Mothering my inner child

Leading me into maturity


I feel your strength pass every test

your virtue is mine to hold

We are becoming...One


Woman be born from my soul

Let my eyes shine bright with the light

of your natural love & compassion


We are bonded in spirit

United in passion

Screaming out the exhilarating Ohm of life


Sensual woman, express your Divinity

For you are the Bride of Creation

You are the Mother of us all



-Dreaming-

I am dreaming

I am dreaming even now

even as the light streams thru my windows

& I am holding a glowing orb, a luminous moon

between my palms


~I know I am Becoming~


I am becoming the dream

I am becoming a healer, a dancer, a lover

I have been chosen for the dance

and I am becoming

the dance


I am healing my heart

as I gently caress the moon

The pearl white moon

I hold between my palms


And I dance the dance of the Goddess


I am one of many

who have been chosen by the dance

to become... A Dancer


Together we dance, entranced, dreaming


Together we sing to the moon

& all its phases

Together we laugh

We cry, we live we die


I am dreaming even now


And I love the music

That entices my body to dance & emanate the Goddess

I am singing & dancing & laughing & crying


I am wide awake


And I am dreaming the dream of dreamers

loving the love of lovers

dancing with my sisters & brothers

as we weave the web of life

& hold the luminous moon between our palms.



-She-

With un-surpassing compassion

She danced herself into life

Weaving the world

upon her luminous fingertips.

She is star-woman

Feeding her children from her breasts

One of Sun, one of Moon

Spreading her fine feathers

Thru time & space



-No Goodbye-

It's the rhythmic passion

Of a beating heart

It's the blood that flows

And gives us life


It's creation itself

That lies within a human soul


It's a greeting

In a goodbye

A farewell to fears

A hello to happy endings


Its the will of iron

That stimulates the imagination

to paint with shades of love


It's simple understanding

of something never comprehending

A granting of a wish long forgotten

A feverish hope

That causes us to dance in the flames of our death...


In time a flower blooms

A young man smiles

As he realizes he was born to be loved

And celestial voices remind us

That friends will always meet again

In this life

Or the next.


-Forever blooming-

~ Dear Galileo & Miss Sunny Sun ~



When my ideas of Spiritual Unity seem squashed by the modern world, I think of Dear Galileo. When he was speaking the truth he was condemned. The church says the son, Jesus, is the center of a persons salvation, but when science said the Sun, was the center of the solar system, they could not or did not want to accept how the microcosm & the macrocosm are reflections of one another, are both heliocentric, & are in fact complimentary. They only perceived competition. It took 350 years for Galileo's truth to be 'officially accepted'. Only in 1992 was this wrong formally rectified.

I find it hard to subscribe to competition rather than collaboration. I see the corruptness in business, war, politics & especially religion. When I reveal my inner truths about these matters many times I feel condemned & marked as the fool. For a moment I feel like I am less than. I can't seem to see the purpose of all the ways we step on one another to get to the top, or be in control. When I refuse to play this game I find myself "outcast".

Then I think of Galileo and how under threat of torture he was forced to recant-his-truth. He was (punished) for using his intelligence, for not believing what others expected him to believe.

I remember that so much of our human experience is in fact illusion, and sometimes the illusion is a collective one and very powerful. They can make people kill & torture one another. People can become so engrossed in feeling superior to one another that they will become willing participants in mass genocide. Think of how often this has happened! ~Gasp~

So I must realize that when the world is busy besting one another, showing each other up, scrambling to gain as much wealth, power, & control as possible, that maybe I have something to feel good about & I am in No-Way inferior. That maybe I am not the fool, but that they are not ready to accept that Love, not money, is what makes the world go around. That what is truly real is the Sacred-Iinterconnectedness-of-All-Life. That what we need to attain is a Spiritual Democracy that is built upon the principles of: equality, freedom, accountability, responsibility, integrity, compassion, forgiveness, reciprocity, reverence and service.

That we must have a willingness to look inward.

Is is not about comparing ourselves to others, but more about how much we share with others. How much we nurture, accept & look out for one another as sisters & brothers. There is more than enough to go around, & if we focus our minds on Love & begin to think with our hearts, then all our needs will be met. If we count our blessings instead of our losses we will see the abundance we have been given and always feel grateful, or full of greatness. We will understand the innate equality in all things and know that nothing is greater than or less than.

We wont be inclined to find differences & faults, but commonality.

I was raised to believe that humility is strength, & kindness is not weakness. That maturity means to be able to fairly see the other person's point of view and even to research it before rejecting, condemning, or criticizing it. To be responsible for seeking your own truth as an individual rather than joining with whatever majority might appear to be too strong to go up against. And to promptly Admit When You Are Wrong and willingly surrender your pride.


~ Seeing Stars ~



I am Ferociously Flawed
yet Purr-fectly Powerful

I am in accordance with Harmonic Resonance
& there is abundance even within dissonance

Each night I wish upon the stars
tonight it's All Good, for Venus & for Mars

Isn't it a wonder how everything in Heaven is reflected upon the Earth
& how all of our Myths have this sort of worth?

Do you know there are Mirror Cells & Star Cells within our Human Vessels
Inside ourselves the Love of the Universe nestles

Once upon a time there was Adam
of course within him was the atom

Apon one noisy or quiet Eve, a spontaneous combustion happened
& so was born Reproduction

Soon the stars could dance
The symphony of the earth lulling them into trance

Each man & woman had 5 points
They had bone, muscle, skin, ligaments & joints

....In the beginning there were No Words, and from this verbal silence sprang music, and the music exists Soul-ly for (The Dance) & this Divine Dance IS GOD ★ ☆ ✰

~Crouching Monkey/Hidden Buddha~


During this Odyssey called Life, I have done my fair share of reading & researching, with no shortage of pondering. Some have actually called me an 'information junkie' which I take as a compliment. I decided to open-up & share some of what I have learned about myself.


All along it has been a "Journey", although more recently, since coming into maturity during my 30's, it has predominantly become a Journey of Self-Study. In the past I was experiencing many things, yet in the present I am beginning to Experience the Experiencer. To Perceive the Perceiver, if you will. I have begun to observe my conditioning & my constructed Self, to find the difference of who I think I am, and who 'I Am' in the larger more complete sense.


On many levels, I consider myself a Noble Creature. I am a clever, chatty, mischevious, territorial, singing, dancing, passionate, creative, talking monkey. A proud angelic little beast. A primate... with an upgrade. A bipedal thinker who is daring to delve into the deeper nature of her Own Nature. Turning myself inside out to find the Organic Truths of unrestrained Human Being-ness. Of Consciousness. Of Awareness.


This 'Seeking' came about due to my own long-term tormented suffering. I was trapped in a self-perpetuated delusion. I was confused & lost. I was not claiming my birthright of Divine Origin. I was caught in the facade. A Charlatan-ruled by my Ego. Trapped in the Maya, the smoke & mirrors, of illusion. I was un-aware & un-balanced, swinging from emotional extremes. A ship without a Captain, running on auto-pilot. Determined & eager I made a powerful decision to learn to identify & differentiate my Ego-ic small-self from my Higher Self. To pull aside the veil, & in this way my Truest Self could claim its Throne... but first I had to Surrender. To admit that I 'do not know', and be able to begin with a Beginners Mind. I had to empty out the pre-programmed thoughts, and sit Still & be very Quiet.


~I had to Listen~


As I became Still on the inside, it began to reflect on the outside.
I stopped clinging to things. I dropped much of the fear, like so much unwanted weight, that caused co-dependency & attachment. I LET GO! I stopped trying to control & learned to enjoy going with the flow. As Acceptance entered the picture I noticed how little I resisted suffering, & through this non-resistant attitude, my suffering decreased. I no longer magnified my pain & it became more like a passing shower than a full-fledged hurricane complete with soul-crushing hail. I stopped trying to grab the bull by the horns and became a Graceful Toreador moving about ease-fully in life's Sacred Dance.


With ongoing practice of Mindful Living most of my great walls have come down. I no longer feel alienated, excluded, or separated from other people, cultures, species, or the whole of the universe. I am beginning to embrace all I encounter. I have heard it said that "The Fire of an Awakened Being rejects nothing, consumes & makes use of everything, & so it burns with an Exquisite Brightness"-- that essentially helps to shine White-Light to guide the Soul Home.


I don't mind giving up the 'small things' in order to accomplish the Big Thing. I tackled my addictions one by one, mercilessly slaying the dragons that would hinder my growth & threaten to keep me in a darkened dungeon for eons. I no longer seek out or crave that which is self-defeating. I do not want what I have not got, & what I got is all that I want. Enlightenment comes when one is responsible enough & brave enough to first & foremost "Be a Light unto Yourself". In this way the hidden aspects of ourselves are revealed & dealt with in a conscious manner & the World is changed from the inside out, one person at a time.


To fully enter & occupy ones senses & feelings is a courageous act. Trust me, I know how brave one has to be to be sensitive. When we are able to find some-form-of-pleasure in every encounter, that is the true measure of maturity. To Seek & To Find the Inherent Goodness in One & All is what it means to Live Fully Alive & to be Genuinely Thriving.

We Are Here....Now. There is no other time...than the Perfect Present Moment. Weather you are farther into your Journey or just beginning, you are, right now, standing on a precipice. Weather you are new or old, if you Start with your Heart, you will scale your steepest mountains with the ease of an experienced climber.

What is within you is a Knowing. An Ancient Understanding of Truth. It is your Guru, remover of darkness, and your Guide.
You Are Not Alone.....The Force---Is With You! ... and so is SUNFLOWER!


xoXXox Lovin-You-Soulmate-Family

Yours truly, Sunny Sunflower!

~ Halo ~


....And I'm keeping it ON!

Saturday, February 25, 2012

~ The Rainbow Body & The Gentle Dove ~



For Buddhists, the rainbow is "the highest state achievable before attaining Nirvana, where individual desire & consciousness are extinguished."

The meaning of the 'Rainbow Body' is beyond that of a yogic attainment. It is ultimately a manifestation of Compassion, of a real bodhisattva's ability to show people that "the-path-is-worth-taking", that the (sacrifices are worth it), and that their endeavor has Universal Power to reach out beyond the confines of the body or time.

"You don't see the Rainbow Body with the eyes of the body but with the heart."



I met a lady on my travels who told me a story. She had a pet dove who had recently lost it's mate. One day she found an injured bird of another species in her back-yard. She decided to nurse it back to health & put it in the cage with her dove. When the bird had finally healed she took it outside and released it. It began to fly away and then circled back to fly around her and then proceeded to fly strait into a tree. Her presumption was that the bird & her dove, despite their differences had fallen in love, had filled missing holes for one another & could not bear to be separated. So this bird, for it's own need & the need of the other found a way to stay by re-injuring itself. They stayed together, this unusual pair, until the death of the dove. The next morning, the other bird had also died.




To be Healers we need to go beyond being victims or even survivors of whatever our own private hell might be. We are being called apon instead to become transformers of consciousness.
----Joan Borysenko, Fire in the Soul

~Catharsis, Transcendence, & Ecstatic Dance ~

What is suffering & how do we relieve it?



Catharsis
a: purification or purgation of the emotions (as pity and fear) primarily through art
b: a cleansing that brings about spiritual renewal or release from tension

Transcendence
a: Beyond the ordinary range of perception

If one suffers for the sake of Love is the suffering really so hard to bear? Is it in fact still considered "suffering"? Could it be considered as 'growing pains'? Would it be called suffering to see a flower blooming, or a baby learning? Is a tree losing it's leaves seen as suffering? Or a geiser erupting? All these things give us delight as we see them happening.

Is it really suffering then when we suffer for Love or to be Loved? Is a willing act of self-immolation for love seen as suffering? What about martyrs & willing sacrifices, like Jesus Christ & Martin Luther King Jr? If what we witness ultimately turns us from our 'worldly concerns' to being in loving-union with the 'Highest Love', is it suffering? in cases such as these it would seem all of humanity together makes a 'mutual sacrifice'. A suffering to end suffering.

Is there no beauty to be seen in the suffering? God's presence & participation in the Agony & the Glory of all things remains steadfast. When all oppositions: such as Pleasure & Pain are At One - definitions vanish.

Why then choose to focus on suffering?

If you want to be perfect - if you are a "Perfectionist"... learn to perfect your COMPASSION. It is thru self-less-ness that one is released from self. From the sweetness & bitterness of all of life's joy's & sorrows. From all the desire & fear that keep us perpetually suffering.



Purge your fears, sweat your emotions, release your terrors, find your FREEDOM, and Dance in the Fires of Purification! xo

Friday, February 24, 2012

~ In the Beginning...There were No-Words ~




They say to begin with a beginners mind. To start your quest for wisdom as plain & naive as an infant. It is understood that the mind of an infant is empty; it is fresh. It has no preconceived ideas; it sees things as they are. It is free from the habits of experience & therefore open to all possibilities. The infant has no thoughts of achievement, and makes no demands. it makes no judgements, no distinctions.The infant lives in the present. And because it does not put one before the other, the infant is equal with its Compassion.

The intellect can be an intruder on the Intuitive Experience. Intuition is a knowing or understanding Without Words.

Many times words stand to get in the way. They are used in battles of the intellect. They serve to fuel the fires of debates. In the end, the impasse remains untouched - altho one of the people involved feels victorious & ends up draining the power of the other. Even if the other is correct, words can serve as swords to slash & slay truth. It is a power struggle. A verbal/mental game of chess & the victor is not always the best man, but rather the more skilled & powerful at bashing, rejecting, convincing, collapsing, denying, or breaking down the other party's suggestions & ideas.

Language in the Intuitive Arena Is Futile

I do not belittle words or intellect.

Great teachers or parents know they should always be open to learning from students or children. Even if the only thing they are learning is how to be a better teacher or parent. Sometimes a way to be a better teacher is to listen. How can one even listen if one is intent on being the 'dominant talker' or know it all? The youth have a voice that needs to be respected & heard.

When you are confident about who you are, you are also benevolent. Ego wont keep you from reaching out & lending a helping hand, or from being compassionate. You will 'feel' a natural inclination to be of assistance to others in need. To be beneficial to the 'greater good'.


note: no one - nobody & no thing is to blame for anything that ever occurs, because all is ~Mutually Arising~





"What I desire is a return to the Profundity of Experience. I want a society where everyday activity, however mundane, is centered around how Incredibly Profound everything is. I want that profundity to become so Immense that any mediations between us & it... become totally unnecessary: we are In The marvel. When I am in that awe, Words Are So Irrelevant, I don't really care if you call my experience "God" or not. All I know is it is the Greatest Pleasure Possible: to hug a tree, to jump up and down at a beautiful sunset, to climb a magnificent hill, to take awe in what surrounds us. I am a hedonist, & I will have these pleasures; neither the religionist nor the atheist shall lock them away from me!"

~ In Truth I Trust ~




What is the cause of the growth of a Sunflower seed? Why the Sunflower that is to come of course! The future is the cause of what is happening now! At the same time the Sunflower of the past that dropped the seed that took root - is also the cause. In this regard my loves... the past, present, & future are all together one.

And so... on we go...




...And so it was that Lucifer, meaning 'Light' was God's favorite Angel. God then created man & asked his beloved angel to bow before his new creation. Lucifer loving only God as thee greatest of all things' refused to bow before mankind. He told his Lord, "it is only you I will bow unto", and with that he was cast into isolation far away from his Beloved God.

-- You see as Sunny imagines it, the Ego of the Angel missed the (entirety) of the point. In his devotion to only love 'The One' he did not have the Revelation that all of Creation is 'The One'. To bow even unto something that appears 'less-than' is to truly Love & Worship the Divine Lover. In this way we are always in the presence of our Beloved in the many forms it does take.

Trust me on this one... because I Promise this... Is The Truth I Trust!

xoXXox Love You Family

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

~ A Collection of Joyful Sorrow & Sorrowful Joy ~




(A poem I wrote for my Favorite Poet & Beloved Teacher Hafiz)


Forever A Becoming...

This Life Consuming Life

Pushing Continually Forward

Beyond The Pain

Into The Mystic Bliss

Of The Dance

Humbly passing thru the monstrosity of finite existence

Into Infinite Delight


and now some thoughts:

Am I up to my own destiny?
Thru all this Sorrow & Joy?
Can I will myself into Light
Knowing I must come to it through - horrifying pain?
It must have been that I chose to Be.. Here.. Now
In this body - In this time - With this mind
I must not lose my nerve
I must push on thru
play my own game all the way
My Life is my Art
neither winning nor losing, gain nor loss can influence my right
To Live My Art
for that is what is...
Ultimate Revelation




Great words of Wisdom...
'The Fates lead him who will
Him who wont.... they drag!'
~Let me then choose to be led~

I have learned in life you do not necessarily get what you give - you get... what you live! One can give nothing but sincerity & kindness, compassion & consideration however there will still be those who long only to condemn & criticize, to belittle & patronize. They will mock & scorn & make one cry! Why?? Because Life...Is...Suffering. This is the monstrous nature of the human beast. This is just how it is, and it cannot & will not be changed. Society will not be corrected. One must learn to live in it. To navigate the heavens & hells and bow in Reverence Regardless. To Humbly pass thru this initiation into Sanctuary.
For Indeed... we all need... eventually -- To Rest In Peace.

Oh to abandon this absurd Human City
& go deep into the Cathedrals of the Wilderness
and rest there...
In-Harmony-With-Nature
~~~~
I do believe this is the CURE
for nearly everything that ails the Human Spirit
Especially mine!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Speak to us of Joy and Sorrow.”

And he answered:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

Is not the cup that hold your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter’s oven?

And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart & you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, & you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.” --The Prophet--



"The Sleep of Sorrow & The Dream of Joy' By Raffaelle Monti, London, 1862

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

~ I'm Your Huckleberry ~



If you like a tell it like it is kinda gal... I'm You're Huckleberry!

In one brief paragraph written by Mark Twain, I can give a reader deep insight as to precisely why I am no longer in co-hoots with the Bible, or it's clan of followers. Yes I was once a Bible-Beater! Believe that! Thank God I was saved from that absurdity! Thank God my innate reason over-rode the programming!

If you don't understand why I left the Bible & the Christian Church after reading this paragraph, rest assured, you surely never will. Simple as that.



"In my schoolboy days I had no aversion to slavery. i was not aware that there was anything wrong about it. The local papers said nothing against it; the local pulpits taught us that God approved it, that it was a holy thing, & that the doubter need only look in the Bible if he wished to settle his mind - & then the texts were read aloud to us to make the matter sure; if the slaves themselves had an aversion to slavery, they were wise & said nothing. "



Another revealing quote by Mr. Twain, if I may...

"I think we never become Really & Genuinely our Entire & Honest Selves until we are Dead - and not then until we have been dead years & years. People ought-to-start-dead & then they would be honest so much earlier!!"

and finally, my favorite, as I also resonate with it:

"Ah Well, I am a great & sublime fool. But then I am God's fool & all God's works must be contemplated with great respect."

From the Musical "Godspell"


Sunny-in-the-NY-Shelter-Bunny -- over & out. I'm sure you will be hearing it from me at least everyday though =D

~ The Inner Garden ~



Time to let go of the Ego & write something that benefits the Greater Good. The Greater Good being All who are One & One who are All. My Soul-mates, my In Lak'ech A'la Kin
- my other selves.

Let me not forget to give credit where credit is due. I would not want my Great Teachers to feel unappreciated. Even though they may be deceased their teachings are still thriving today. I would like to thank, in order of appearance upon this Planet: Buddha, Christ, & Joseph Campbell.

I first discovered Joseph Campbell in 2007, where I found his Mythology Lecture Series in the Florida School of Massage Library. Joseph Campbell, being a student of another of my Great Teachers, Carl Jung, helped unfold my consciousness. For that I shall be forever grateful.



Let us begin at the beginning. The word Eden in Hebrew signifies 'A place of delight'. In English, Paradise means 'A walled enclosure'. Eden may then mean 'A walled Garden of Delight'. If we view Eden, not as some external place but rather as a Landscape of the Soul then it would have to be (Within Us). It seems as if our consciousness has gotten so far from its center that we can only see in terms of black & white. Good or Evil. We do not in the current paradigm, see Eden or God as dwelling within.



Some 500 years before the birth of Christ was Siddhartha - a Royal Prince who left his 'walled garden of delight' in order to discover a path greater than being sheltered in privilege, and in turn, help the whole of the suffering world find the Light of their own Immortality. His story is great indeed & I first read about it in the book 'Siddhartha' by Hermann Hesse. This book was given to me as a present by a random person who ran out of gas on the highway. I stopped to assist & what I got in return for my help was a priceless gift of deep insight. In fact, many of my important realizations or remembrances have come from random people on the path of my travels. I did not stop reading Hesse after 'Siddhartha'. I went on to read all of his work, as his is the study of duality, and I, being bi-polar resonated with it from a very vast & soulful place.

Much different from the Christian tale of disobedience & the punishment of being kicked out of the Garden, (which yields of its believers an attitude of dependency & fear-based devotion, which might be appropriate for a child in relation to a parent - or a sheep in relation to a shepherd, as they say), comes the Teachings of the Buddha, the Awakened One. These teachings are for the self-aware, self-responsible Adults. They are wisdom based, and not for children. In fact if these teachings are learned by children, they serve to make them wise. Not living in fear of hell, not being trapped by the confines of guilt.

Both stories, that of The Buddha & The Christ alike, include trees & serpents. In the Christian saga, the serpent is the deceiver & is rejected & cursed. In the Buddhist tale it is accepted & becomes an assistant & helper. When the Buddha was meditating for a long time, a great storm arose in the world around him. A giant cobra came up from below & wrapped itself around the Buddha protectively - covering his head with its cobra-hood. You may see the images of a cobra on head-dressings of Ancient Egyptians. This symbolizes awakened kundalini. You see the roots of these myths are older than the old testament & the Buddhist teachings as well.



In the Bible legend, our First Parents are expelled from the garden, whereas in the Buddhist Tradition we are all invited in. In the Buddhist view the Fear of Death & Desire for Life keep us from the Immortal Garden of Our Soul. It is not the cheribum or the wrath of an angered Father God, but our own instinctive attachment stemming from our senses. We do not desire to relinquish the pleasures of the physical life. Yet, clinging to material, this keeping up with the Jones's, this continual striving for more & more is thee 'Great Barrier' keeping us from recognizing & identifying our own Immortal & Universal Consciousness.

Desire & fear must henceforth be over-come in order to return to the non-dual, perfectly balanced, many harmoniously co-existing shades of gray. We may find that by letting go of our desire for excessive material longing & the fear of not having what we need - that in fact, we become blessed with more. Of course we will have desires. It is our nature, I do not ask you to fight against your own nature, however let us shift our desires to be the fruits of the Spirit. Wisdom, Love, Family Bonds, Kindness, Servitude, Virtue. This is the same in Christianity & Buddhism. If we have Faith in Loving Kindness we will have no need for fear, for we are taken care of.



Please consider the paralel teachings of Christ & Buddha. It is interesting to note there have been no Holy-Wars fought in the name of the Buddha. Today even upon military weaponry there are etched Bible Verses. This is a fact.

The Buddha, unlike Christ in many ways, for he was born into great wealth. He was pampered. He was married & knew what it was like to be a husband & a father. He lived into maturity & managed in fact to save his life from those who wished to assassinate him. The Buddha left his comforts & all he knew at a young age. Most imprtantly my beloved family, he left his Ego. In turn not only did he gain Enlightenment & Inner Peace he gained the Right to be a Great Respected Teacher. He lived soul-ly for the purpose of being beneficial to others.


Saturday, February 18, 2012

~ Flower-Feather ~






Onward & heavenward she grows, thee rare & precious 'Sacred-Flower' She is A living Sacrifice. She is... The Dance of all life. Both Mother & Lover of Quetzalcoatl, the 'Feathered or Winged Serpent'.


Xochiquetzal is Flower Feather, the ever young and pretty goddess of flowers, love, pleasure and beauty. She is a patron of artists.

Xochiquetzal represents the sexual power of young women.



I never want to 'Rest-In-Peace' Do not ever wish that upon any sky-dancer. I would rather continue the dance.... May she forever dance in Exstacy would be an appropriate phrase! xo

~ My Reflection, My Shadow, & Me ~

I SEE YOU--- In My Eyes!





My reflection, my shadow, and me.... my trinity. Well, one of them which are all striving for a bit of Truth, and the truth is I'm on the sidelines of the 'Game' I guess, because I wont participate in a rat-race. My 'programming' is not going to come from T.V. When Freud discovered our psychological workings & learned how to manipulate people with commercials & ads... (making certain people very rich)... by enticing & entrancing us with flashing lights, sounds, pretty pictures... Encouraging us to feel more complete if we were able to purchase 'certain things' that would be good for our Images. Presentation is everything! Goodness! To me... Real-ness is everything. We already ARE everything~~even NAKED. To have a bunch of 'stuff' makes some people happier, even if it pollutes the Earth, which in turn pollutes us, making us sick with dis-ease. Is that real happiness? (Insert your answer here) Yeah, my programming is coming from an ancient source.... LOVE.

~I'm less modern that way. I turn off the TV... unless it has something sincere to teach me.

I'll be there to support anyone who is interested in 'Shifting' their programmed consciousness. We know we've got to make the change. Truth & Health are more important than having things... creature comforts. Not that I don't like them. Air conditioning is fine, boy I sure love to be comfortable! but... I'm not going to be unhappy without it. I'm not interested in 'Slavery'. I'm not going to be a slave to the grind. I'm going to be a Servant to Love. I'm not going to be a slave to my addictions. Instead, I'm looking deep within to find that blessed wellspring of Freedom. I'm seeking. I'm seeing the Real Me. My own Inner Trinity....my Divinity.~~



It is said that when a soul finds its Truth, everything it needs comes to it. And... that soul genuinely Wants what it Needs. We get them both! When we have trust in our Divine Mother & Divine Father, we get Nurtured Wholly & Completely . We get soo many blessings, we can't even count them all.



Listen my Beloved Family, our Power is Purity. So have a little faith, a little trust. You are the Child of the One who Truly Loves you. You wont be forsaken if you let go of some control. Be your-self. Your True Wild Self. Let your Spirit taste Freedom. Do not be tethered & bound. You are All That Is-You! You are riding the spiral. You are Elemental... Earth, Air, Fire, Water, Metal. You are everything you see. Live, Love, Sing and Dance in your Power, before the whole of creation. You got IT... and no one can take it from you! You might be dark, or light, or a little Tiger Stripe, whatever you are, be that. Be all that is you. Go on, shake your tail-feather & spread some of that good Old-Fashioned Unconditional Love!




~For My Shadows~

I want to hold you. Hold you close... and shake you

and tell you it's okay.... to Love Yourself.

Stop standing in your own shadow.

Go..... Embrace the Light.

Be the Light.

~Unite~ with all of it.

Leave no part.... unaccepted.

Give in... surrender... rebel

You can still be free.... in fact freer still

If you will....

Love Yourself.

& I... being a piece... a peace.... of you.... Will be Loved.

For we are all inside... of the One... that is you... that is me... that is Love

~That is Love~

~ Moon-Flower & the Ecstatic Sadness~



If I were a Beethoven song..... you might recognize Sunny in this ecstaticly sad Moonlight Sonata. So feminine, so mysteriously magical, so..... tragique. Certainly much more than Pathetique! My heart plays this haunting song every day.




A Rare & treasured Classique. Some can imitate emotion but few can sincerely feel it. Many can 'play' a song, but not-many can be thee song. Strike a chord that is not of 'this finite world'. Transcend the limitations of the ego... what a beautiful goal. Tell me is it Heaven you seek? Or the Illusion? Do you even know the difference? Intellect will not be able to define the mystery, for that is the void one needs to leap into.... to cross the casm to the land of IMMORTALITY. xo

‎"It seems a gate has opened, between the clouds forthright, & thru it passes pearl-white---- the lifeless queen of night"



~ Clear-cut ~

A picture is worth a thousand words. Unfortunately to those who cannot see the symbolism it says nothing....



Many of our tree's are less than 100 years old because they have all been clear-cut! That is what the ego does. It see's an opportunity for self-glorification & it clear cuts anything that stands in it's way. If they give us our breath, we're breathing in the young, whereas thee elders have so much more INSPIRATION to give! What is Inspiration... but a breath? It is thee first thing we do when we 'arrive' & the last thing we do when we 'depart'. Why is it not held Sacred? Our society would rather inhale toxins, like smoke, even 2-year-olds & monkeys smoke! Do you see what I am saying?

I know in my soul the best way to move forward is to bring back the old. The ancient voices still speak! The Eye-Of-Horus sees with VISION... Not sight. How can one see the inner-visions if one, will not let go of their sight. You think you see, but only the blind can truly see. Close your eyes to the illusion. It's bigger than you & me! Open your eyes to dream--close your eyes to see.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

~ Pythia ~ Oracle at the Temple

The Pythia or Priestess was widely credited for her prophecies inspired by Apollo.








The inscription on the "Temple of Delphi" is the Maxim ~Know Thyself~ as well as ~Nothing In Excess~

Delphi is known as the center of worship for Apollo who embodied Moral Discipline & Spiritual Clarity.

In the ancient Aegean, the people worshipped a Great Goddess, the supreme deity who was creator and life-giver to all. This great goddess was known in ancient Greece as Gaia (land, earth), the founder of the gods of Olympus. Gaia is thought by some scholars to be the original goddess communicating with the Oracles of Delphi, and the site would have been originally dedicated to her.

Apollo is associated with the Oracle at Delphi. He had killed Gaia's female-serpent child, Python. Python was a protector of the Oracle at Delphi & of the navel of the earth. Apollo had thus taken over the chthonic power of Python. Apollo buried Python under the omphalos stone & became the possessor of Delphi. He cast the goddess behind superior male gods.

Women had no power at all, & the priests of Apollo could control a 'lucrative industry' she could be manipulated at times of men's choosing. Entering a trance the priestess could accurately predict the future.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

~ Clytie ~ (the legacy of a lovesick girl)



Clytie



Clytie was a water-nymph & deeply in love with Apollo, who made her no
return. So she pined away, sitting all day long upon the cold
ground, with her unbound curls streaming over her shoulders.
Nine days she sat & tasted neither food nor drink, her own
tears & the chilly dew her only food. She gazed upon the sun
when he rose, & as he passed through his daily course to his
setting; -she saw no other object- her face turned constantly on
him. At last, they say, her limbs rooted in the ground, her face
became.... A Sunflower, which turns on its stem so as always to face
the sun throughout its daily course; for it retains to that
extent the feeling of the nymph from whom it sprang.

"The heart that has Truly Loved.... -never forgets-
But as truly, loves on, to-the-close
As the sunflower turns on her God when he sets
The same look-- that she turned-- when he rose."

'"Sunflower" is the name by which we know those flamboyant blossoms which follow the sun.
This is the story of Clytie, the nymph whose destruction came from a faithful, unrequited love. She was a water-nymph, a timid, gentle being who bathed where the blue dragon-flies dart across the white water-lilies in pellucid lakes. In the shade of the tall poplar trees and the silvery willows she took her midday rest.

Suddenly, into the dark pool by which she sat, Apollo the Conqueror looked down & mirrored his face in the water. At once he became the lord & master of her heart & soul. Such devotion might have touched the heart of the sun-god, but he had no wish to own a love for which he had not sought. The nymph's adoration irked him, nor did pity come as Love's pale substitute when he marked how, day by day, her face grew whiter & more white, and her lovely form wasted away. For nine days, without food or drink, she kept her shamed vigil. Only one word of love did she crave. Unexacting in the humility of her devotion, she would gratefully have nourished her hungry heart upon just one kindly glance, one utterance of appreciation. But Apollo, full of scorn & anger, for all that she represented, lashed up his fiery steeds & each day he drove past her, never once with any desire to make her his own.

Soon the nymph passed out of her human form, & took the form of a sunflower, & evermore--the emblem of constancy--does she gaze with fearless ardour on the face of her beloved. She forever remains the devout lover of a god.'

Tho' guilty Clytie thus the sun betray'd,
By too much passion she was guilty made.
Excess of love begot excess of grief,
Grief fondly bad her hence to hope relief.